Fucked up world.

been 3days..

2006-03-28T08:12:00.000-08:00

hmm..abt 3days never post..due to tiredness..well..life is busy..haha
for the past few days..working in kfc is quite relaxing..dint get scolded too much at least.. ^^ quite simple and easy..
well..dint go to sch today..was running a fever and flu..so rest at home until 5 den i go work..o..forgot..introduced chen yi to kennedy..hahaha.. cos kennedy like abit like her.. so have to try and matchmake them together..but in de end is i talk to chen yi more..i was like oh my gosh..how come in the end is i talk to her more..i donno the feeling i have towards chen yi..but im sure its not love..shit sia..i cant explain it..shall try to talk to her lesser..that will clear my doubts..^^ dont wanna live my life in such confusing events anymore..sick of it already.. well..today went to work at 5 instead of 6 because i was abit free and i wanted to change my handphone faster so i can save some other money for other uses..

heard some other complains by mother today after i reached home with the fatigue and tiredness..about my father's side..was angry and sympathetic for my little sister and brother..i suppose i will sacrifice my free time to work and save more money for them to use.. for i am the eldest in family..hope their life will improve as soon as possible..hmm..and also when my father returns from the phillipines i really have to talk to him about his taking care of my little sister and brother..because i dont think it is good enough when they are still young too..if he cannot reach a agreement of looking after my sister and brother better..i think i will bring both of them over to me n my mother's house to live with us..mom said she cannot afford the expenses if both of my siblings come, so i am thinking of sharing the expenses with her if there is a need for them to come live with us..that will be quite a big sum of money..which means i have to work abit harder..haix..how i wished someone will just throw 1 million in my hand..then i dont have to worry about all these money problems anymore and deal with other problems..

hmm..cant think of anything else now..for my brain is in a total blank..tomorrow have to go to school..have to sleep early so i wont slp in class..working hard every single day to do my best in everything i encounter..
signed - JingJie-

ar..quite a peaceful day ^^

2006-03-23T08:32:00.000-08:00

wee..just like the peaceful days when no one finds me any trouble..which i do not appreciate that at all. ^^
had my 2nd day of work at the KFC lolx at wednesday. wasnt as stressed anymore. quite fun being with the people there..heh..and i seriously wish that no more incidents during my life like the past..fucked up people from the past ruined my childhood happiness. curse them. forget it..im just unlucky having those people around me all the time.
shall stop talking about that..im tired..people always get tired..depending on the mood and the interest to them..
well then..brought back a whole bag of cheese at the closing of the restaurant..was very happy..because usually i had to go to kfc n pay for the cheese..nw i get it free!! ( ps. good advantage of working in kfc lolx =x)
well..got my dinner secured there..so will be quite a money saver too..hehe
hmm..i suppose my current priority is to earn some money to buy my handphone..either n70 or n90..in 1 month ++
then comes all my burdens which i think most of the people i have met have no problems with and i seriously hope them not to be involved in such cases..for they will be as tired as i can be either mentally or physically
well..these are the problems i am facing..lolx.
:little brother and sister having problems at my father's house..fuck that step mother..asked my brother and sister to mop floor wash clothes iron clothes wash plates and such. those chores doing occasionally doesnt matter. but it is daily.. and somemore they have to wash the clothes of the stepmother and her children. while everyday the stepmother play her MAPLESTORY. and doesnt even give a damn for my 2 siblings. what is this? she treat them as her maid? got good food she ownself n her baby eat. never give my brother and sister..cb..still ask them do so many things..still have to take care of her baby..when my brother and sister want to come to my house she say cannot and hand over the baby to them and she leaves to hougang?! knn! shall settle this..sooner or later.
: current things for me to do
:earn some money from kfc and give some to my brother and sister to buy their monthly buspass
:give part of my money to them for extra pocket money monthly
:pay part of my handphone bills
:stop taking mother's money and use the part time money for my own
:start saving and earning for my laptop using next year for poly or jc or ite(hopefully not)
:keep some money for my future tertiary education
:give part of money to my mother for her expenses
:do my homeworks regularly and hand in on time
:have enough sleep when working
:do housework chores more regularly for my mother as she is getting old
:look after my health as it is getting worse
:settle the stepmother as fast as possible
:do well for my o lvls exams
: try not to sleep in class for lessons are precious
:do what i can to continue my life peacefully
shall stop here..for i forgot what else..

how i wished i was like any other people..carefree without problems. just down on my fate that i got such problems..haix..as the 1st child of the family..i have the duty to take care of my siblings..and make sure they have a good life..how i wished..
well wishing is wishing..theres no miracle to it..jia you ba jingjie..for i know u got the perserverance to achieve what u always wanted.. ^^v
i have always wondered why so many people commented on my attitude and others..and i finally realized it..
it is not that i have attitude problems towards people, but their reaction towards me at first, which result in the whole bunch of people accusing about my atittude. these people who said that i should take a look at my atittude first..look at yourself then, what have u achieved? what have u done to make me have attitude against you? always look at ur doings before pointing at people..- from aunty jasmine
compare yourself and me. u do not have as much problems as me, less worries to think about. imagine urself in my shoes, with such stressed out problems, would u like people to find problem for u? i dare say after some time ur reaction will be much bigger than mine..
perhaps people do not know me well enough..they are just blinded from reality..they have all they wanted..while i do not have that much..even so i still am strong. no matter what yea? afterall in my whole life till now, and weighing my kind helpings to people and carings for people to the wrong doings that i have done in the past, someone tell me. is my wrong doings more than my kindness for people? for me i would say no. because i know what i am doing and why i am doing. to make life better for them and try not to let them fall into deception of reality and virtuality. just do not understand why such simple theories people do not understand..and those things i have done for them out of kindness and caring..they do not appreciate..sigh..gods of the heavens..help me change their thinkings and philosophys to the type like me..by then they will understand what i am talking about.
well..shall go sleep now..tomrrow still have to study and work at the same time..till 10pm..jia you jingjie..u are not alone! heavens are watching over you for they will aid u in any time of need. =)
signed off.
-JingJie-

My first day of work in KFC! ^^

2006-03-21T07:50:00.001-08:00

woo...excited today due to my first day of work in kfc..had my usual lessons in school today.. but was damn tired..donno why..sleep early also tired..sleep late also tired..haix..donno wtf is wrong with me..should be slpt at maths..physics..and chem..haha..chem got miss wong..but really too tired to open eye..think that theres nothing special..really have to work hard for my studies now..as i am working part time in kfc..believe in myself that i can manage it. :)
for FnN today Mrs Quek told us to do our target setting..and i was determined to get my A1 in Fnn..i i believe mrs quek will help me get that too.. so lets do our best and strive for our results and don care about anything more. ^^
after fnn..lucky no extra class..so i and kenny rushed down to west mall to begin my new job..new environment..new collegues.. hope to have a friendly relationship with them..heh.
was still tired..but had the interest in it as i love kfc's things..lol. nv expect myself to do this job..lol.started at 3.30. the manager, shakila, briefed me about the kfc history and stuffs..quite enjoyed..haha. so i ate there and started learning how to service to people..being the cashier haha..
got a new name today for my kfc nametag! : SHAWN! rofl! okok la..will try adapt to it :P!got an pre examination and a injection! zzz..took on the right hand..nw numb abit..no strength lol
hmm..took 16 whip potato home..becos extra..will nid to throw..woo..hehe =x
first day of work! worked for 6 hours so is 18$! my target for 1month is 400++$! wan to buy 1 Nokia N90 hp..still nid lend money buy first..hehe...lol..okok..nid to do my homework le..so shalll write tomrrow.. ^^
signed off.. - ShawN! XD

My first day of work in KFC! ^^

2006-03-21T07:50:00.000-08:00

fucking people who make my life miserable

2006-03-16T09:02:00.000-08:00

actually had a post yesterday. but pressed until something the whole program went off..so shall say nothing about it any further.
had my day today. quite a fucked up one i guess. really fucked up. jus dont know what to say anymore. jus fucked up. as the song vindicated lyrics said: i am selfish, i am wrong. i am right. i swear im right. swear i knew it all along.

went to zouk. actually a fun place. saw the girl i like. and people i disliked. which made my day went fucked up. no idea what i am thinking right now. jus 2 words. fucked up. and by the way..i don think i have any more feelings towards FRIENDS anymore. personal ones excluded. jus make my life fucked up. jus fucked up.
other than pluez n gabrien. i don think i got any more friends that i am interested to talk to or be with. completely none. after all they were hostile to me anyway..or perhaps i did not do my job well..cant be bothered with anyway..jus fuck off man..rather die instead of getting closer with any fucked up hostilers who make my life miserable instead of making my day right. man. fucked up i do right now. after all this blog thingy is for people to vent their angers am i right. who cares anyway. lucky i got this stupid fucking blog thing to talk my problems out. because i am tired to talk to people who just are fucked up and dont even know what the fuck they are doing. finding problems to deal with me? fuck it man. i may be kind. but not so kind to let them throw their temper with. jus 2words for those people. fuck you. angers kept within years of torture..it is time to put it all out. because i cannot take it anymore. humiliation, accusation, insultation. fuck them all. kindness is meant for people who needed it. not for people to abuse it. burn this world with fire upon the gates of hell father. i am seriously fucking tired of watching these people ruin my life without the sake of god. this has given me another reason for the destruction of this fucking world. wonder why till now the world havent vanish. for them to enjoy their last fucking moments torturing people with their crazy fucking minds? oh my god..help those people who are as kind as me. as sad as me, as tired as me, achieve salvation towards the gates of heavens. for the rest fucking people..burn them in hell..make them know what is suffering and what they should not have done long ago. let u, my father. do whatever punishment u like to them. even if one day they wanted to acknowledge me as their friend. jus fuck them all and burn them with hot sulphur in their tongues. curse them to hell as long as i please. forever. and ever. i can be as kind as an angel. and as furious as an devil. provoke me greatly and to hell u go. that is certain. fuck those people.
limits of a person should not be challenged. because u never know when those limits may turn against u. be warned. once a person's limits is challenged. be prepared for the worse of ur lifes. because i am certain that if u are not dead. u should be in a hospital care. icu most probably. for me that is. if there is someone who is reading this other than me. i suggest u to pray for ur last existence of this foul earth. there is no cure for earth. for all shall perish in the flames of satan. pathetic creatures. if i were to die away one day. my upmost wish is to burn all in hell which i disliked. BURN THEM! sadistic young fuckers. i jolly well will watch u die one day. paying back all those u all have treated on me. double. triple. FOREVER! fuck it forever till im happy. jus fuck u all.

had no idea why i am writing all these things..but seriously i cannot contain all those angers within my heart anymore. all these things make me fucked up like the others. crying? weeping? for someone who once is ur friend and again made u angry? no more man. wasting my tears and energy. time too. give me a reason i shall talk to u all again; no ? den no more u all should talk to me.
fucked up world with fucked up people with fucked up problems and fucked up life. jus completely fucked up. u noe what. fuck them all up instead of me. why should i care about all these fucked up things? comeon. be realistic. these things will nt be happening back to me again. never. i swear it. for i am nt ordinary. to me. fucked up people arent jus enemies of the society. they are just completely useless to live on earth. fucked them all to mars. MARS. btw i guess the chocolate bar is far more worth than them. jus lousy fuckers roaming in the streets of my life. who gives a fuck about them anyway now. fucking idiots. woooooo. i feel so much better after speaking my bad things out man. fucking relieved. jus completely refreshed.

anyway. for example. raphael kang. once used to be a friend i trusted. good relationship with. once saw them total about 5people at the cc near my hse. at 8+. smsed him whether he went to training anot. he nv replied. nvm. nxt day he called ask me about some things. doesnt matter. i asked him whether he went for his training anot. he said he was resting at home watching tv. what the fuck is this? some kind of joke? comeon la. wan to spend time wit ur gf jus tell me can. don have to tell me lies like i cant accept. i changed. rite? fuck it. doesnt matter to me anymore. anyway..its already long ago i guess. who give a fuck about that anyway. times changed. people changed. no doubt about that. friends or lover. of course usually people will choose lover. for they will accompany them to the end of their life. good right. yea its good. so wish them the best. always kind to them. tried to change my behavior to make myself look better. but in return what do i get? getting left out in the crowd? with complete strangers and no 1 actually asked me to join them back? what is this? fucked up things in return? oh fuck it man. i dint expect to see those results so fast man. thought that good results will come by to my life. what is this? wrong judgement towards them. too kind towards them is such a wrong option after all. when i needed help. no one came. when they needed help. i came. so life isnt fair after all. but seriously after seeing so much people getting their good results after being so kind. i kinda envy them. i don have the life they have. all i have is fucked up attitude to me. curse my own life. i shouldnt have came to this world with knowing i will be getting such treatment from such people. damn on my life. these people made me change my whole view towards life. to think that friends are actually aiding me in my life towards enlightenment. fuck it man. i wonder what i did to get such treatment..no wonder jesus dont want to come back to earth..guess its because he saw the life evolution of those kind people who change to greedy. selfish people. fucked up people. have to stand by his judgement. because i feel that there is no cure for these people anyway. make my life miserable without failure. haix..wonder what will i do if one day god came and ask: how is ur life going on? rofl..guess what i am going to tell him.? no idea..speechless maybe.
what is life man. i dont know. perhaps someone who is much better in explaining what it actually means it would be much better. people that i have talked to basically just tell me common things regarding life. they too. do not know what life is. answers i am seeking now is what people are seeking now. just that they do not know how to express it. logical thinking about all these? no idea. mystery ? fuck it. perhaps people who lived for such a long time on earth still doesnt know what they are here for. some say they are for the repent of their ancestors's sins, or for here to enjoy, for here to torture people. oh man. many people with different thinkings do have 1 thing in common. to live. so why make things difficult for people? do what ure suppose to do and thats it? damn it. hope someone who is here to read my post to offer some explanations regarding all my questions. because i cant find it no more. learnt to be friendly. stop argueing with people. why cant people just think for my sake for just a second? they say i have changed. but do they? all i see daily that those people say i have changed. they all just seem to take themselves for granted. for they think they are always right. yea. that is what i am thinking last time. but i changed. i will think for others before thinking about myself. but cant they change too? fuck it man. their life is so selfish. so unreasonable. so hateful. wonder if this world is gonna end earlier than i expected. fuck it.
after all..taking a look of myself after walking a distance of 15years 3months and 16 days. i think its useless talking after all..am such a failure. tried my best to please people. thats it man..no more of such things..so be it.

My Date with a Vampire 3!!!

2005-12-06T08:08:00.000-08:00

woots! i just love the show my date with a vampire 1, 2 and 3!!
i love their story..their characters! Kuang Tian You and Ma Xiao Ling just are too perfect..they shld get married together..but too bad..both of them have their own husbands and wifes..:(
anyway..those ppl who are jus browsing my blog..haf a look at the singapore forum + webisite of them!! the website is www.mdwav.vze.com remember to check it out!!
btw long time nv post..don tink anyone will be looking -.-"
haix..days go lonelier everyday i past..will there be a person that i like and be with me till the end of time..who knows..lol..

anyway..ok i link u le ^^

Haix

2005-10-24T12:37:00.000-07:00

well...its been a long while since i'm posting..
been mapling for the whole 2 weeks..lvl 46 now..i hope to get to 48 by thursday..and..50 by saturday
nothing much occurred..
recently saw a korean drama which made my heart soften alot..lolx..the title is called -tian tang de jie ti -
its abt a young childhood life of 2 children...a boy and a girl..which both liked each other..they were separated by the girl's stepmother..who has a daughter and illtreat the girl very badly.have 20 episodes..and every episode i watch i will feel like crying..lolx..or cry when no one's around..the girl went through alot of obstacles..ordeals..which normal people cannot..in the end the guy grow up and found the girl..which she lost her memory..and dey finally got married..but soon the girl found out that she got cancer..eye cancer..and..its a sad ending..you guys who are watching my posts lolx..shld really go and watch the drama..
well..i nid to go slp i guess cos its 3.46 am in the morning lol..kk..thats all ba..shall post if i have time..

I once found out that i liked a girl very much..but its saddening that she doesnt like me..but its ok..cause she probably is happy now..and perhaps..its time to let her go to her world..cause she doesnt belong in mine..neither me in hers..sad now..but i hope that she is happy forever..so i dedicate this paragraph to her..goodbye..

I hope all who saw my posts will find their true love..and be happy forever :)

Exams coming!Games leaving!

2005-10-03T08:26:00.000-07:00

wooha! donno when since i last blogged wahhaa..was busy with many stuffs..like english chinese and maths tuition..-.-!! very tired..so now i'm freee so i just recap what i gone through over the month..heh..
During the month of september...have some wonderful times..like playing maple..know some new friends..learn new things...stuffs like that which i cant remember that clearly lolx..hmm..designed my new friendster profile already..hehe..kinda work for me haha so..hmm..if anyone was watching this..maybe u ccould check out mine :P
have to study for chem and english as wed the 2 papers are coming to have a battle..lol hope i can win them and get high marks! den i tink i can stay in express..jia you! lol self encouragement but its okay..anyone if looking at the blog may just tag here? hehe so i know ure here and maybe put ur link here so i can link u..well..donno how much i wrote already..nvm i just keep flooding this place..as my personal diary..

Its great without using a pen to write so many words..save time, save ink..save paper..wow its just too great except u have some internet bills and electricity bills coming after u lolx..no link rite? u shld see raphael..such a joker..its fun talking and listening to him..makes life less bored..if without him maybe today i'll be in NA class already..haha..wait wait..how come from write many words become raphael..lol! no link..-.-

Talking about raphael..heres a intro about my Best friend- Jacky..a good friend..we buy things together..we share things..we chat often..we crap alot too haha..i guess his my best friend in sch lol..although he has a weakness which is he cares more of his things than friends..lolx but overall hes still a good friend..

I dont understand why people leave each other once they found a better things or person..i dont understand why humans have to die one day..i don understand why relationships cannot be simple..i have so much that i dont understand that i think i maybe dont understand myself at all..Maybe if one day i die i'll understand why..

I once told myself i lived because i want to live..but i guess i was wrong..i lived is because the people surround me gave me the will to carry on with life..without people..u find that u live for nothing..imagine urself living in a world where there is nobody living in the same world with u..i think you wont stay long there.haha.
People always said - Practice makes Perfect. But ask yourself..no one's perfect..so why must we bother to practice? lolx but actually they meant practice makes improvement..just that er...they want it to ryhme u see..hahax.

Well after writing so much..i think i have to go sleep now..or else tomorrow cannot wake up = die already hahax..Good Nitex!..hope everyone have a fine fine day with a fine fine smile :)
shall continue my posts next time..hehe =P

unpleasant week..

2005-08-29T09:21:00.000-07:00

bad week..father went hospital..so stayed with him,never went to sch on monday..hope he gets better god bless him..lolx..havent been myself lately..hhax..kinda think that gaming doesnt interest me anymore..-.-...shall see how its goes..

Flag Day! ^.^

2005-08-06T08:14:00.000-07:00

post post post...bored bored bored! hhaha..went up early this morning..morning call by lingjoe..took a quick bath and took a bus to the jurong east interchange..dam slpy.haix. saw junhao,laiyee,kenedy,simon, weikang,lingjoe there. then haisheng came..wahaha..and we left for dhoby ghaut. haisheng was telling us about him and another 8 friends how they act as ahbengs and the things they do..damn funny ahaha.hope got time to follow them and do their stunts. we went to plaza singapura and walked around the mall, and simon went to the toilet and later came out and said theres something inside hahah..all was like so freaked out. then we went up the escalator. to the 1st floor cause we at basement. me and lingjoe nth to do, went up in the opp direction, having some competition! but i still win in the end..hahaha..we compete until the security guard waited for us on top of the escalator! haha! quite embarrassing..liew.ahaha. then we went to macdonald's to have our breakfast.ate there and halfway, bingjie came. and all is like wait for the 'king' before starting to eat..haha.
time pass very fast..soon is 8.30 already, then we went to do our duty for today..ask ppl to donate ! we first thought flag day was very boring..but not so boring after all haha. went around plaza sing first..then we travelled all the way to bugis, went shopping hhaa. cause its morning and not alot of people, but after that we walked around asking ppl to donate already..and sad thing is ppl always donate to girls more than boys! >.< unfair.haix.
had a great time asking ppl. then we went to the arcade..junhao played maximum tune..i wanted to play too! but i forgot to bring clothes to wear..and was chased out of the arcade..freaking person in charge.

then..we went back to the collection area..gave our things and went off. simon had something on to do so went off first..and me,junhao,lingjoe and laiyee took the red line back home.then everyone just drop off. and the day ended..ahaha.

fell to bed till 7+pm. due to a call which made me wake up..zzzz. junhao came to get some songs..and went off..and i wan to sleep now!!ha ha..woot..cant wait for monday to arrive..see what shows for monday..haha! thats it for now i guess..made my will to learn maths until i pass, and dont scold so much vulgar le..hope i can complete this by end of year..sad.

zzz..finally get to write posts haha

2005-08-02T08:54:00.000-07:00

woot..donno since when i last written a post for myself..but..nvm ahha..
quite forgotten what happened during the last few days or even weeks.lolx..seems like i cant keep writing posts all day long..damn tiring..z..
Yesterday was boring..F n N..those boring subjects..bored bored..but after sch quite interesting..saw fiona with mental probs sitting on the middle of the road!? wahaha...1st time occured in hongkah..felt sorry for her..and i began to question god's judgement..why give a person a suffering life when He was already suffering the sin for us..and let a poor girl suffer miserably..days went passed and i suppose my belief for god has went down quite alot haha..cause i seen too many things already..ahaha.
Anyway..after sch..went to eat prata with raphael and ben..been a long time since we 3 eat together..not bad haha..then went home to play some maple..vitalsign..gunz..then went to rest and went to tuition with raphael..lolx.
We travel to the tuition teacher hse..using my haro bike..actually i was supposed to ride raphael..ahhhaa..in the end its him who ride me.hahaha. the journey was fun..but he told me he is not going to ride me anymore..=(

Today..no comments i think..just...sleepy.slept during social studies..and bloody johannes and jacky keep talking and talking..cant sleep..was forced to go to a corner to sleep haa..
chemistry lesson..went to chem lab..slpt there but was chased out by miss wong..chem teacher haha..but was damn tired can..but nvm..outside got chair sit..whahaa...and zzz..slpt until maths lesson..
maths..didnt know got test..so..haha.no time finish. but i understand most..only no time do.haix..most i think i will get 3marks wahaha.
had chinese and geography after that.
chinese teacher just sucks..did her compo and went straight to slp..such a nice weather today
i din bring my geography file today! so whole day hiding from mrs tan,hoping she wont call my name.haha!went to humanities room today. slept enough so cant sleep anymore haha.came back home at 4:30 and went to sleep till 9pm..hah.
Tmr: Pe! die..2.4 haven even run. =x thinking of failing it. haha other subjects..forget already lolx.aiya..hope tmr razak never come..then woot song.slping time~! XD
hope got time to write tmr.=p

Hehs..

2005-07-10T06:49:00.000-07:00

Ha..finally after so long..guess no one will look at my post anymore..unless..i'm important to them which i don think so..haha`..okay..yesterday..woke up and went to church with aaron..haisheng..yongle..dayang..kai en..and some from my sch..actually is all haha..well..long time never go church..heh..shh..

Anyway..today..woke up like 1pm..so slpy..and today miracle happened..my mum suddenly want to buy mp3 for me..woot..so nice of her today..went to imm to buy..and raining..=( got a ichiban mp3 player..200 dollars..256mb only..sadded..heh..but so nice the display..then played maple storrie whole day..so boring playing myself only..ppl pls play can..if the ppl who seeing this blog haha..www.maplesea.com to register and download..haix..so little ppl talking in maplesea..more more more..i wish.
Hope tomorrow will be a better day..in sch..aiya..just know tmr got cooking..sian liao lar..donno got apron anot..zzz...ok..i go find le..signing off here le..writing tmr[talking to myself ahaha]..

A Normal Day-

2005-06-19T09:22:00.000-07:00

Day was normal,woke up at 12,helped mother with mopping the floor and stuffs,went online.do nothing.then went to ritz house.visit them.go off.go lanshop.then fight internal tdm compy.
i'm so happy for my team ArmourZ.Fought with ArrowZ.won 14-6.so happy.after with ArrowZ.Will be fighting TitanZ.And my team members STB,ShadowBlitZ and JoJo so good for me.went after its time to fight them.left me and snake.i was so happy that mrsbladez told me that we got walked overed.oh man..i was so happy that i nearly thought of takingmy new razermat and threw it on the ground.the feeling was so..i donno how to explain..but i was damned happy.the best thing is.we won ArrowZ.and our position is below the one we won.funny? haha.i was so happy we got so HIGH. out of 8 teams,we got 7th.ha.guessed everyone was so happy.din get last cause galz team walked overed.ha.
well.what a day.i am so PROUD OF MY GOD DAMNED TEAM. geez. so happy today..

Busy week..

2005-06-16T11:22:00.000-07:00

haha...sry for posting so late..i did not have the time..busy playing gunz..level 33 now..hoping to get lvl 42..then i will stop my gunz..don worry TeamCrusaderZ...i wont let u all down...hehe..
today...had a very bad experience crossing over to the dead world..was so tired that i fainted blackout just outside the platform of the mrt...it was so scary..u open ur eyes..u see pitch black..with glimmering lights..no pain..only sorrow..and u cant hear anything..except the cold wind blowing around u...so i realized dying isit too painful at all..but all of a sudden..u will suddenly remember all the things u cannot forget..all the things that is uncomplished..therefore..i decided to pull myself up..even if it was helped by ppl..haha..sound quite lame rite this? but i have to say..its true as i experience today..and u wont want to try it..haha...

anyway..jojo and stb came to fetch me to somerset cause i cant walk anymore..helped me carry my bag..went to centrepoint to get my food cause cannot stand it already...bought 2 sets of sausage mcmuffin...4$only..lolx...then..proceed to cyberdome for training...started training at 10 plus..training was quite ok...lolx..except rainer not very listening..ask him to walk he jump here and there and let enemy hear..-.-..work hard rainer..i believe in u..:)...ok..then when training finishes...went separate ways...some go home..some go suntec...well me and jojo went to plazasingapura...went for some games of Maximum Tune 2...after that we went to my house...played my computer..then left at 6...to jurong point..ate KFC...sooo full...lolx...then went play again maximum tune 2...then...its already 8pm..then i brought jojo to the mrt station..and we say gdbye to each other...then..i was alone again.
haha..to me...i knew i got something i want to accomplish...but some things just cant seem to let me accomplish..life is just meaningless..hope u all wont be shocked when u hear me died in any accident..i predicted this day will come to me..unless there is anything for me to hold on to.....but..guess not now..anymore.

Enjoyable Day

2005-06-09T10:09:00.000-07:00

Today...woke up at 1pm...went to switch on my com..played VS for 2 hours lidat..wa...very tiring and cant open my eyes..well...todays is a special day..hehe...i'm the present collector ler...
later went down to Toh Yi Drive to collect my present..hehe..attractive.Thank you Aiko..then...rushed down to sengkang to meet xiaozhu and yinwen...time so rush...and i was like late for 2 hours..wa...very paiseh ar...haha. reached there at about 6..=x went down to delifrance to look for them..all lying down like dead pigs..hahhaha
then yinwen gave me my present there,quite nice...a bracelet like that..unique i think..haha..a shared present by KimGeok,XiaoZhu,YinWen.Thank you for the present..its very nice..well,later treated them pizza hut cause i'm late..and yinwen suggested to go to japanese restaurant..bleah..too bad i don eat japan food..so ate a peperoni pizza,but i prefer plain cheese pizza..heh. well..time flies very fast..very soon its 7pm..walked around the mall.then got yinwen a kitkat,then went to cyberactive to check out the acessories.saw the exactmat..very nice..just the exactmat is $45...plus the what rest..is $59..haix...sian 1/2.after walking for 1hr..time to finish the day le..yinwen need to go home early..then..me and xiaozhu just went to plaza sing to play some arcade..wa..she very pro leh..all perfect move..i think i cant even get 10 perfects..haha`
then brought her to parklane lanshops..then hang around there for abt 1hr plus..talk alot.plus with lame jokes..haha..very fun.well..a beginning always has a end.soon..she gtg home..and i gtg too..so we went diff directions.me to the west,she to the east.haha.
Afterall,i can say out of my 15 years on earth,this is truely one of the day which i enjoyed,and a memorable one,too.

My Birthday..

2005-06-08T12:11:00.000-07:00

Well...today's my birthday...guess..not so happy though...heh...well...i think...i wont get more than 10 presents...so far...recieved...a DiamondBack Limited Edition Plasma Blue Light Mouse..
a...everglide mousepad..hope so...a eXactMousepad...hope so....another DiamondBack Limited Edition one...hope so from zhan and jain..heh...a mthly card from SnakeX..thx..a....mysterious present from yinwen and kimgeok...well..hope to get a big big present from CrusaderZ Family..which i always regard them as...hope..this yr..i can break my record of every year less than 10 presents..hiax..

Tired Day...

2005-06-07T08:10:00.000-07:00

Well..today was a tired day..woke up at 10...and i realized i was late for my meeting with my friend Sniper(STB). Went to bath for 10minute...then rushed down to dhobyghaut to meet him...well...quite rush for the trip.
We went to the Parklane Shopping centre for lan-gaming for about 5hours...sat there and kill kill kill...wa...very tiring..well...for the coming competition..guess i have to..damned tired..
after that few more people came to join us...went for long john silver for dinner...then proposed to see the movie " Unleashed " .Watched the movie at Plaza Singapura..Lolz...quite nice the show..well...very tiring...tomorrow must go to work...haix...hope tomorrow will be a fun day for me...and wee...countdown of 2day more to my birthday..but also no use..no presents...haiz...hope i will be getting some nice presents..then perhaps my life could be better...could someone tag? i want to see if it works...hehe..Thanks...

New post..

2005-06-05T11:18:00.000-07:00

hi..this is my new post...nth special..really.hope i got time to write more things.